its 2:38 am and i just watched two movies
so i just watched two joe keery films while i did my nails, two very different but oddly similar films: 'free guy' & 'spree'. i think i did like 'spree' better because it didn't involve the love of my life joe keery's character falling in love with another female character, but i do think that kurt kunkle is the epitome of the worst of what people could be especially in todays culture with screens and poop and stuff. i think 'spree' also impacted me more because i feel i have related before to kurt kunkle and his desire to get views and stuff. and that is really scary cuz look what happened to him. like obviously he was a psychopath on top of everything like the red flags are ablazin but still, very introspective stuff. also joe keery is so hilarious and precious i have a feeling i would have a lot less sympathy for kurt if someone else played him.
and then free guy scared me a lot cuz of all the ai crap in it like it made ai romantic and cutesy and that scares the balls outta me that this exists even though it was a cool film i hate how real it is and how that reality is so horrible.
anyways this blog is probably for nobody but myself and maybe a few close friends and my children when i die, so i apologize to anyone reading. i am a very depressed woman but due to the manner of said depression i don't actually feel sad that often, mostly just empty and live in individual moments trying to find things that make my brain have some happy chemicals for even brief periods of time. so anyway this stuff is hard for me to talk about to anyone but my therapist i can barely even speak about it to me mum who i tell everything to, maybe to a fault sometimes cuz we trauma dump on each other anywayyyyyy i should really go to bed but i wanna watch another movie on my list of joe keery movies so we will see if i make an actually smart decision tonight and sleep asap.
buhbye -anbanapeterebesen
how am i supposed to just despise kurt when he has joe keery's face? he so cute
